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Arcane | Season 2 (2024), Christian Linke and Alex Yee
#arcane#arcane s2#arcaneedit#once again tried a little color coding for the three acts#(choosing from the gifs i made while rewatching for every moment i liked minus the ones i already used in the acts gifsets)#green for act 1 red/blue for act 2 more natural colors + gold for act 3#i'm not a hundred percent satisfied but it is what it is XD i have so many gifs#anyway season 2#i hate how they basically dropped the zaun/piltover conflict in the last act#and i still think that this story would have benefitted from some space to breathe - 9 episodes for all of this was just not enough#there are things in this that i think could have been developed in a different direction (i will just say vi and caitvi but not just them)#but maybe it's just personal taste#i am SO SAD i finished this rewatch#tv 2024#i made this#my arcane gifs#i just want a tag for the things i personally put out into the world#tw flashing
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A bunch more of this guy. Love this guy
#I miss this show already#it’s been like 4 days since I finished rewatching it#I am sad#I miss my boy#so I guess I cope by drawing him 1 million billion times#but K.O. is so much fun to draw#don’t mind the heterochromia#if I go too long without giving character random design details I like I will perish#ok ko ko#ok ko let's be heroes#ok ko#ok ko fanart#Crab Doodles
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scooby dooby blu where are you
im in link click and orv hell xD
about to visit arcane hell soon...
where are you 👀
#bluris answers asks#anon#have a nice day~#40% through novel now hfjklansd#im so sad about the names being dokja kim instead of kim dokja in the eng novel publication like damn#insert the pingu meme where its like well now im not doing it (buying it)#and also the webtoon iirc idk i lierally read the latest ep yday but i dont remember#mister sounds so wrong btw like. why yall change it jus tkeep the honorifics sigh#im also unwell about link click live action#i am debating if ishould rewatch all of link click and the live action with chinese subtitles to see if i can practice my chinese xD#also i seriously considered buying the taiwanese orv version and getting my chinese to be good enough to read it#but lets be real besties idt i can read it unless it has pinyin/zhuyin ahaha....#or i just have pleco next to me...it would take me like 10 years to finish reading it LMAO#hm. i woudl buy it tho if there was an audiobook with it then i could def read along#starting my rewatch of arcane now + s2 later#i forgot the eps werent 20 min oops#gonna take me longer than i thought lmao#anyways if u read up to here ty haha
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i just realized the funniest thing kinda: i've been watching jrwi riptide from gill's POV. i had to skip the feywild arc because i'm currently playing that campaign, so i got to hear all the lore (ex: edyn talking to the navy) when gill learned. so anyways theres my silly realization today!!
#jrwi#jrwi riptide#i'm sad i barely got to see goobleck because of it#but i'll rewatch once i've finished the feywild campaign#did they change it up? maybe#but i am NOT risking it#so hopefully gill knows all the lore from then because i CANNOT take another surprise like that#it was fun though!!#they told him and i gotta be like “edyn did WHAT?!?!”
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i. i finished. better call saul.
oh my god
im in shambles im in turmoil im in pain im a shell of a man i dont even know if im supposed to be upset the ending was so incredibly bittersweet to me because. mcwexler. it ended how they started oh my god i havent stopped crying since the credits rolled I WANT TO DIEEEE the time machine scene with walt AND THE CIGARETTE AND 86 YEARSSSS HEA GONNA DIENIN PRISOM AWAY FROM HIS WIFE WJO JE IS STILL MARRIED TO!!!!!! IM NEVER GOING TO BE THE SAME MAN I WAS!!!!
im so sad i feel like. this was only my first watch and it spanned several months idk ANYTHING im like a bcs virgin basically but i feel like. he didnt really care how long he got because he felt like his life was already over isnt the entire point of black and white how fucking sad and bored gene is like 7 years or 86 his life will never be what it used to be and thats for the best really but just. UGHHHH I FEEL SO NAUSEOUS AND I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE
#better call saul#bcs#brba#jimmy mcgill#saul goodman#gene takovic#kim wexler#i hate life#kill me#i will never be normal again#HOW AM I EXPECTED TO JUST LIVE OUT MY LIFE AFTER THIS#i should stop finishing shows while im on my period#i know thats so specific but i get sad when shows end regardless and the hormones do not fucking help#wonder how jimmy deals with his periods in prison lol#(he is trans)#(i am delusional)#(coping)#sorry for that#im gonna rewatch it now#i miss you howard#he deserved better#and if im being fucking honest#part of me is glad jimmy got put away#i adore him but#howard really did deserve better#poor man#i wish kim got punished#in a sense she did i guess#living her sad ass black and white Florida life#but so did gene
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i continue to stay up till 4am due to my growing obsession w enhypen. it's either ao3 or youtube but either way i am suffering from sleep deprivation
#wiggles overshares#i am so close to finishing iland tho#i have the second half of the finale and then i'm done!#which is exciting but also sad bc i've rly enjoyed watching it#i'll probably rewatch all the jay moments tho bc he is my fav and i love him a lot#also sunoo and jungwon. they are also amazing
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shadow and bone really had chekhov's goat
#and everyone loved it#milo slaps#crunchyposts#grishaverse#im so sad im not gonna finish my s1 rewatch before s2 comes out. i dont have time#its not like im gonna binge the show in one sitting though lol#ill watch the finale tomorrow and then when i finish ill wait a bit then watch the first ep of s2#EDIT#I AM ACTUALLY WATCHING THE LAST EP OF S1#I MADE IT I REALIZED I STILL HAD TIME
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I Watched Beetlejuice Beetlejuice a Third Time: More Things I Noticed
Here’s my previous list for those that haven’t read it. Enjoy!
A lot of people on this post I made thought that the dog in the MacArthur Park sequence was Taco from the Ghosthouse segment where Beetlejuice appears in the audience. I am sad to report this is not the case. Taco is a chihuahua, and the dog that appears is more of a terrier. However, some people on Reddit wonder if the dog is the one that ran out in front of the Maitlands’ car and killed them. I haven’t rewatched the first movie yet to check.
When Beetlejuice stitches Lydia’s mouth shut, she’s more exasperated than afraid. She literally tries to yell, “COME ON!”
Beetlejuice looks so offended on Lydia’s behalf when Rory calls her codependent. Like, “Is he serious right now? Get him, babe!”
Beetlejuice appearing before Delia can finish summoning him furthers the eavesdropping theory I made in my earlier post, and if we go off that theory, we can explain by Beetlejuice wasn’t that bothered by being summoned away at the wedding. He’s overheard Lydia’s desire to take her relationships slow and her reluctance to marriage. (Which is most definitely because of him and the fact that the last living person she loved tragically died—even if their relationship was over before that point.)
In the film, Beetlejuice is the ONLY person that agrees to help Delia find Charles, which we see her do at the end of the movie. This means that Beetlejuice kept his word and helped Delia, and he didn’t keep her away from Charles after the wedding fell through.
“MacArthur Park” plays when the studio intros roll, during the wedding sequence, and the end credits—three times when we have three different iterations of Beetlejuice and Lydia’s dynamic, fun fact. This is meant to be their song, and although the song is about a doomed relationship, this part sticks out to me: “After all the loves of my life / You’ll still be the one.” It doesn’t matter if Beetlejuice gets the timing right. It doesn’t matter if Lydia marries him. He considers her “the one.” He’s always going to wait for her, as conveyed by “Right Here Waiting.”
Astrid opens pages about violation 699 and summoning sandworms via trapdoors. I understand that was meant to “foreshadow” later events and explain why she knew how to do those things, but the terms for 699 are barely on-screen, so it’s hard to catch the part where it lays out how bringing Lydia illegally into the afterlife makes her contract null and void.
When Delores appears at the church, there’s a huge gust of wind, and the Handbook moves, but NOTHING ELSE MOVES with that precision until Delores moves Lydia away from the altar. This is kind of a stretch, but I personally think it’s possible that Beetlejuice saw Delores, and he purposefully sent the book in Astrid’s direction. If we go off my eavesdropping theory, he clearly knows Astrid is a smart girl. Plus, he stopped her from getting to the book earlier, so he knows it’s a threat.
When Beetlejuice has a dramatic entrance or exit, it’s very intentional. He does a whole dramatic couple’s therapy bit for Lydia and Rory. He does the earthquake through the model with a slow rise from the smoke. But we’ve also seen him appear in straightforward ways, too, like how he appears randomly to spook Delia. Beetlejuice controls his entrances and exits, and so his dramatic exit at the end is intentional. He allows Lydia to send him away. He makes a big show of it. Lydia has been manipulated by Rory for years. He’s tried to control her and stifle her. When Beetlejuice lets Lydia send him away and makes a big show of it, he’s demonstrating the amount of control he’s giving to Lydia. He goes because SHE wants him to, not because he can’t stop her from saying his name.
(Editing to say that this post confirms the dog is Tim’s dog.)
#beetlebabes#beetlejuice#beetlejuice beetlejuice#beetlejuice x lydia#beetlejuice spoilers#beetlelyds#beetz#Lydia Deetz
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a piece i didn’t have the heart to finish. i’d started this when i found out vld was being taken off of netflix and admittedly got too sad about it to complete it in a way it’d do justice to my feelings.
this next bit might be a little long and unnecessary so im gonna put it under the cut
[TLDR- thank you voltron for being by my side for the last 8 years, i’ll miss you]
i know it’s a little late to make a post like this since it’s been gone for a while now but i wanna so im gonna. this show is so incredibly important to me and i feel like any “farewell” art i make won’t match the way i feel about it being gone after 8 whole years. i’ve been here for 8 years. i was only 12 or 13 when i first watched it and somehow im nearly 20 now which is genuinely so crazy.
it’s a love that’s lasted continuously since the first watch and no media has impacted me the way this silly space cat show has. it’s been in my brain every day since 2016-17 and i haven’t felt my fixation to it waver even a bit. my art accounts and even style to an extent has been built off of vld. it existed no matter what in some way nor the other in my life. always with me even if i never properly rewatched it. i’ve made friendships and discovered some of my favorite creators through it. they just don’t make fandom like vld anymore man, genuinely one of the experiences ever.
i have so much more to say but i will conclude my rambling here since it’s pretty out of character of me to go off on a sappy rant like this and am therefore not used to it but basically what im trying to say is Thank you Voltron. thank you to the creators thank you to the fandom and thank you to the characters. i wouldn’t be who i am without it. by no means am i gonna stop posting about and making art for the show but it feels like the end of an era with it being gone (ik ik pirated copies etc etc but ykwim)
#didn’t mean to get sappy on yall#i may or may not ever finish this piece but for now#it’s a wip#till we meet again#in another reality maybe#artists on tumblr#digital art#fanart#digital illustration#voltron#voltron legendary defender#vld fanart#vld lance#vld keith#lance mcclain#vld pidge#vld shiro#hunk vld#vld coran#vld allura#keith kogane#wip#work in progress#kay talks ★
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Finished S3 Ep. 4 on my rewatch and I am feeling big feelings.
The way it ends with Emily staring wistfully out the window after being sad that she couldn't foster that little girl and JJ telling her that she could see Emily with kids....
Emily is so wonderfully multi-faceted and I'm so gutted that she never got her baby. It's bad enough they didn't let her be the lesbian she was meant to be.
Shit like this is why fan fiction was invented. We can give her everything even if the writers didn't have the balls to.
(I'm well aware that life doesn't work like that and people rarely have everything, but.......this is fiction and those characters go through more than enough bad shit.)
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Oh, you watched Fiona and Cake, great!
I am curious, what were your thoughts about like Winter King or first opening? Or like about overall more mature stuff than in og adventure time
So now that I'm doing a huge rewatch of the OG Adventure Time, I will say I adore both in their own ways.
It was really cool seeing the more mature stuff in Fionna and Cake, sort of like the show 'grew up' with the audience, you know? And do NOT get me started on how much my heart was destroyed by Simons entire plight through.
See I never managed to finish the first show, mostly just got distracted, but on my rewatch I can tell I at least got through six seasons. I like how spaced out the original show is, and it makes the really sad shit with like the Ice King hit like a ton of bricks when it happens. It really feels like you're watching all these wacky people live their lives, and occasionally the horror of the Mushroom War reminds you of its effect, through Marceline, and the Ice King, and every character who was forced to live through it. I don't know, it's really nice!
Okay I'm gonna ramble so I'm putting a read more!
I was wondering if on a rewatch I'd get frustrated the way later seasons of Steven Universe made me get frustrated, but it never felt like that at all. It's just been... fun. It's just Finn and Jake on adventures, occasionally having to set down their fun and recognize the horror of things around them, and it's just. DAMN it's just done so well.
I just got to the episode where Finn meets Prismo and makes the wish, and accidentally ends up wielding the power of the crown, and all it did was break my heart. Like I was sitting there, and for a split second I was like 'wow that crown corrupted him really fast!' and then I remembered.... he was like 13 when he got the crown. He was still a child, and when Simon got the crown, he was what, in his 40s? He was just a kid, and couldn't possibly be able to handle or combat the crowns power. It just punched me in the gut.
So I very much enjoy how spaced out and silly the original Adventure Time is, because its such a unique world I love seeing more of it, and I feel like it makes the heavy scenes hit so much harder. With Fionna and Cake, I love how tight the story is and how structured things are. They're both SUCH good shows, with different ways of writing and different vibes and I adore them equally at this point.
ALSO THE WINTER KING, holy shit don't get me started, but I will rant about this mofo
(These are keychain designs but I decided to put them together on a little canvas)
Firstly, I fucking LOVE the Winter King, and I'm really sad we didn't get more of him. I do wonder if the fact that Fionna's universe wasn't 'canon' during all the universe hopping, that if somehow the multiverse will reverse some things and 'repair' the damage. I'm not even saying that because I want to see the Winter King again, it just absolutely sounds like something that could happen in Adventure Time. Hell, look how they made Fionna and Cake just-- real! Thanks Prismo you're a cool guy.
But in terms of the Winter King as a character, and in terms of his universe? I want SO much more detail. Where is Finn, where is Jake? Marceline either left the Winter King or got killed, so I'm curious there too. The juxtaposition of genuine confidence and whimsy, and the mans incapacity to feel remorse or even real deep sadness (him saying 'Oh! The dead one?' when Simon asked about Betty was... holy shit) he was just an EXTREMELY interesting character, and I so badly want to see more of him.
Also dude was just funny. The fact he straight up admitted he thought about kissing his alternative universe self was so fucking funny, and plays heavily into his narcissistic behavior and tendencies.
On TOP of that, the idea of how he ended up cursing Bubblegum specifically would be so interesting. I read online people assuming when the Ice King did his spell, it was more like "I want Princess Bubblegum to love me, so I'll do a spell so she can understand what I'm feeling and then she'll marry me!" but then the 'understand what I'm feeling' is actually just... "Hey, I feel absolute madness, here, take it off my hands!' and might have just been a huge accident. We certainly can't trust Winter King's words about it.
I don't know. He was so fascinating, and the way he put feelers out to see if Simon would feel the way he does (Specifically talking about making an Ice Betty, then realizing Simon was disturbed so he shrugged it off with a laugh, being like 'no thats immoral obviously haha') and the fact that he was so cautious and smart about avoiding telling Simon how he conquered the crown? Like he would be glad to help and teach Simon how to keep his sanity AND his power... but obviously would have never spoken his secret the more he realized Simon would morally object to it.
I dunno. This character was in the show for 20 minutes and he was so fucking interesting I almost feel robbed. I hope maybe we can get some Adventure Time comics about the guy at the VERY least!
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3am Musings about my Shoto's First Kiss Series
Shoto's First Kiss Part 5 is gonna be WILD I can't wait to finish it so y'all can screech along with me. I'm writing some silly plot twists and turns but I am trying to stick to a few main themes as I craft the tale:
Shoto x The Reader's banter and relationship
The smut. Obviously.
Shoto receiving the gentle love and support he deserves because he is such a sweet soul and genuinely just needs some quiet moments of sweetness and praise. I'm rewatching the Sports Festival arc right now and our boy is so angry and sad and I hate it. I love that after Midoriya yells at him to reclaim his power, he becomes like this friendly boi with zero ability to read social queues. Shoto "The Hand Crusher" Todoroki is just a little sweetie deserving of love.
Chaos.
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Anyway, here's all the parts that are published so far:
Shoto's First Kiss Series:
Part 1: Shoto Todoroki x Reader | First Kiss ❄️🔥💋
Part 2: Shoto Todoroki x Reader | First Kiss ❄️🔥💋 PART 2
Part 3: Shoto Todoroki x Reader | First Kiss ❄️🔥💋 PART 3
Part 4: Shoto Todoroki x Reader | First Kiss ❄️🔥💋 PART 4
Thanks all!
XOXO,
RedRiotUnbreakableHeart ❤️
#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#mha#bnha#boku no academia#boku no hero#bnha manga#anime#shoto x reader#shoto todoroki#fanfiction writer#smut fanfiction#fanfic#fanfiction#shoto torodoki#todoroki shoto#mha shoto#my hero academy fanfiction#my hero fanfic
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I rewatched “I want to eat your pancreas” (live action) movie and now the hormones and chemicals that makeup my brain and allow my body tofunction is thoroughly fucked up so I am in the mood for angsty hcs.
what if…
you were a terminally ill liyuean citizen given only one year to live by dr. baizhu and changsheng, and you are also zhongli’s assistant. assistant? well, more like closest confidant. hu tao specifically trained and hired you for this position knowing your skills and knowledge are almost on par with his. it was a perfect duo! and in less than 5 years, you’ve grown quite fond of one another. however, you were his silent admirer.
you loved the man. despite your illness, you’re surprised you were able to live thus far. and for years, you’ve noticed how melancholic the consultant looked whenever lantern rite comes around.
it didn’t take long for you to realize it was all because of one person: guizhong, the deceased goddess of dust.
you’ve suspected it for a while. you found out while he was asleep and in his relaxed state, his heart was unguarded and left for someone to know of who it holds dear. but oh you didn’t meant to! you were only meant to serve him tea… but you didn’t imagine you’d find yourself mourning with him.
not because you were sad for him, but because his heart belonged to someone dead and gone. you don’t want to be another burden now, do you?
so you distanced yourself, slowly. until such time nobody even noticed how the light in your eyes seemed to lose its bright glimmer, or how your once wide smiles grew impish and almost forced. or how your once radiant, pinkish skin lost its luster and bright glow.
and until such time, with how much you’ve distanced yourself, zhongli never noticed the lack of your presence in the funeral parlor.
zhongli would one day look at your desk with a strange look and knitted forehead. he’d be out and about to find the funeral director.
“director, hu tao, have you seen y/n? i… y/n’s absence lately is worrisome. have something happened that i didn’t know about?” he’d asked.
and like she was bathed in cold ice, hu tao failed to ignite the spunky fire within her—the usual look the consultant would see on his friend and boss—and that scared him.
“h-haven’t you heard? y/n’s… gone. fatui skirmishers ambushed a local tavern near luhua pool and unfortunately y/n was one of th…”
the ex-archon would not even let the young girl finish. what for? to allow himself to hear of yet another loss in his life?
in the end, you would be another name uttered whenever zhongli rests—when he is most vulnerable. your name uttered in solemn grieving, together with guizhong’s.
what a terrible friend you are, y/n. in the end, you’ve become a burden to him too.
a/n: i don’t know what i just wrote i’m going with the flow here. my eyes hurt fr crying so much :’(
#lily's random thoughts 🖋️₊˚⊹⋆#genshin angst fic#genshin men#genshin impact#genshin impact x reader#genshin zhongli#zhongli x reader#zhongli x reader angst
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Ace, have you seen "Land of Bad"? It's about a group of special forces who have a very, very bad day. Milo Ventimiglia and Liam Hemsworth spend a good chunk of the movie covered in blood and fighting for their lives.
(And yes, I am rewatching Heroes and now feel the need to watch all of Milo's filmography)
Oh my god no I haven't yet but I want to so badly!!! I've seen a couple of gisets from it and I am DYING to see it and then probably gif the crap out of it lol. Milo having a bad time and covered in blood? YES PLEASE!! NEED IT!!! So yeah I'm totally going to watch it.
Apparently I'm on a big Milo filmography run here thanks to Heroes cause I now want to watch everything he's in. My current list (and yes any whump is being added to my long to gif list and yes they all have whump):
Finish my Heroes rewatch
Land of Bad
Armored (he gets shot in this one)
A few select episodes of This Is Us (no i never watched this show and i still don't fully intend to but there's some stuff i need to see)
Tell (2014) (pretty sure he gets shot in this one too)
The Company You Keep (i meant to watch this when it came out, my sister did, but i never got around to it. i'm gonna watch the full thing. and i know he gets hurt in it at least once)
The Whispers (2015 tv series) (i saw a gifset of one episode and woo boy do i need to see this)
Chosen (2013 tv series) (same the whispers. need to see it cause of one episode)
The Art of Racing in the Rain (pretty sure it's sad as fuck but I like that shit so i'm gonna watch it)
#mod replies#ask#milo ventimiglia#so much fun things to watch and gif#i need more hours in the day lol
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i've rewatched the whole of toh season 3 like three times over the past few weeks and having done so..... i Do have to say. there's this one popular gripe about how the writers "stopped caring about" or "completely shafted" luz and hunter's relationship in the finale, and i think it is..... so silly.
like. by all means be a little sad that they didnt have a one-on-one interaction animated in said finale, but. like.
their arc finished in thanks to them. like, their arc was completed in thanks to them. there are two arc-finishing moments in that episode: the first is luz's "you're family now," establishing a permanent commitment to each other; the second is hunter's "that's what belos does, he tricks people" -- finally acknowledging that neither he NOR luz were to blame for what happened. and shedding the codependent guilt-ridden self-isolating secret-keeping they'd been doing for months.
like. thanks to them establishes that they are In It Forever, and it solves the interpersonal issues that had been plaguing them since hollow mind. it's a brilliant episode that finally gets them to a healthy place and absolutely nothing in the subsequent episodes even HINTS at ANYTHING undoing that.
their relationship is Rock. they are Family.
season 3 is essentially a two-hour movie where the first 40 minutes are spent on luz and hunter working out their issues. having established that, the next 80 minutes need to be spent on things that.... aren't stuff the animators have already spent 40 minutes on. you feel me?? any repetition and dialogue they had in the finale would likely have meant taking away a different detail about the surrounding cast.
again: be sad they didnt high five in the epilogue or whatever, that is Fine. (i'm not, but i Am eternally sad darius and gus didn't get to do more plotwise, so i get it.)
but for Goodness Sake you guys.... you cannae ascribe malice and/or bad writing to one of the best television arcs ever written.... you will hurt my feelings :(((
luz and hunter's canon relationship is so fucking good. they love each other in the finale and have been canonically hanging out being family for years, regardless of whether they're noogieing each other onscreen or not.
Everything Is Okay.
#toh#toh meta#started thinking about this in the shower#i've been thinking it since the finale came out well over a year ago now but#here's a like. proper meta post. about the writing#horrible mindscape trauma pals
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Hello! I didn’t want to reblog your personal post so I came here to tell you that I relate to it so much.
I’m 27 and currently very scared to look for my first ever job, while my friends are years along in theirs and some are getting married. I don’t know if you’ve ever watched “Friends” but it feels very much like being Rachel, who at some point “was only getting coffee”. I rewatched it recently and it helped with that lack of compassion a bit - it was easier to feel it for someone else, but then it dawned on me how similar some situations were to my life. It made me feel better about myself and somehow also more hopeful.
So, I’m sending a virtual hug to you (if that’s ok) along with a reminder that 30 is young and we have entire lives ahead of us and I don’t think it will ever feel like we’ve learned enough. We can only keep going and try to approach the learning with excitement (if possible), even if it seems we might be behind.
I get that feeling. When was writing my master's thesis it was really hard for me to get motivated to finish it (due to there not being a deadline) but also I was dragging out the time where I had to apply for jobs. I was working always a bit while studying but I really started to panic because I could not imagine myself working in the field that I studied in for 5 years and I was also scared to get rejected from jobs if I did apply. I did not know what I liked, where I saw myself. It was really bad. But I did get a job and it did change me and I grew a lot as a person. I am also single and people around me seem to be more grown up than I do (at least that's what my inner critic is saying :)). They're having kinds, getting married or buying a house or even just dress more confidently and it makes me feel insecure and more isolated at times.
But as clique as it sounds, life is about being scared and showing up anyways. About writing your own stories and failing plenty. I feel like I fail plenty but I win and grow also all the time. It depends on which emotion I stand on when I look at the day or what I did or did not accomplish.
Me for example, I just got fired on Thursday because I also have a problem of keeping my mouth shut and keeping critique to myself. That post was about me not being professional enough or conformed enough and my boss got pissed at it. It feels like a relief because I was so stressed but it also it feels like my personal failure because the situation is due to both my boss and me (and also of course the work environment, the clients, a lack of communication etc.). But it really sucks right now and I feel the whole rainbow of anger, guilt, shame, fear and sadness right now. But things will get better again and in the grand scheme of things, this will not be as signifiant right now as it feels. It just does at the moment because I am feeling all these things and this job was very important to me.
I think what I just want to say with we're all fail at time but we also can celebrate our private victories a lot of times because both of them exist. That's life and that's the strength, for stuff to suck but still show up for yourself. I am trying to be compassionate with myself even though in all honesty I fail at it this year like 7 out of 10 times. But we still gotta try 🌻
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